Decision

''Tet-tet-tet-tet'' which ring the school bell sound 4 times indicating that the graduation this year will be announce by the teacher. All examinees name affix to the wall full of dust dull, now all the students look at the names that pass or not pass, and not only that, the students getting the best value of a scholarship is also in with a different fill. One paper used to write three names of students who managed to get a scholarship.

Oh ... scholarship was founded in the international scholarship. As usual 2 hours after the announcement, a reporter from the magazine of education will come after Mr. Denis our principal annual call for info.

After the patched, all examinees, including student council participant scattering see announcement. I feel excited or not? All feel was mixed. I have any doubts about my ability, feeling arises in the liver lazy not accept the fact if the next thing, I hope is not the same as what I can.

"Didit, have you seen the announcement?" Ask Selly

Somehow I feel very lazy to see the announcement on the board, the awkward look there, I'm afraid my rating of this year has decreased. What should I say if that's true? Dreg deep breathes before answering.

"I do not know why all of a sudden I became lazy to see the announcement" I answered shortly.

"Oh you're so weird, Dit  ... yah, I'll see it for you, honey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

 
Dian is always there for me. When I feel happy, sad, and depress. I feel very happy to have her there for me. I love her more than she loves me.

"Let's see together Dit! Come on! Don’t be lazy honey! "She said as she pulled me.

I cannot refuse Diana’s demand; she is always there for me. I walked approach announcement board. For some reason all eyes turned to me. 'What is wrong with me' I explain to myself.

Two friends walked closer. His face seemed pale, suddenly I became nervous, sweat out. They made me be scared to see my rating alone.

"Dit ..." Melani "Dit, I do not believe to see your grades?" Melani said ambiguous. That means negative or positive results. I also do not understand with their expression.

I immediately walk over this bulletin board. Having reached the front of the bulletin board I did not believe the results that I get, the results are very surprising.

"Dit!" Diana holds the shoulder. Diana was surprised to see my rating, so do I. "Dit, you graduate with the best value, I do not believe you finally can get a scholarship that, Dit!" He continued.

"I'm really glad I finally did it! I do not believe all tau-rich dreams. Pinch me! Aw ... really sick..... "I immediately hugged him so tightly.

“You making me excited. Did my heart feel like detached! "I hit their heads together, because it already managed to make me nearly dead. And I hugged them both.

"Hmmmz, but fared well! It’s right, Mel? “It’s correct. ... .. I really cannot stifle a laugh when Didit was scared rich. How could he not pass, if Didit did not pass it all mute also not going to pass. Actually, you are the smartest students in this school. The proof you can skip class. Although you often say to us 'custom makes all thinks easy' but still wrote for us 'Building Castles in the water' so all that's not likely to be achieved "clear Selly after Melani.

"Nothing is impossible in this world! But one that we have to remember guys 'Man purposes disposes god' but we should still try "the pearl that just came out.” It’s right guys?" I continued

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"Yayayaya ...... I really know. Let's have a celebration from this graduation!" Said Diana.

"Come on! Let me pay for all  ... Let’s eat together untill full, ok!!!!!!!!!!!! Let's have fun!" Melani replied, and pulled our hand.

All look so beautiful without the burden a bit, but reality is not the same as what it looks like. All of this is just having the character of an instant. Rich kids who always helped me in the material and time. I'm just an ordinary person who does not want it passed quickly. Want to smile on like this. We celebrate graduation with colorful paint on the white clothes of the students. So look beautiful of the ornate signature real friend who is always there.

2 hours pass quickly. At 5 pm which seemed like at 2 sunny afternoons. I have to remove the sense of my happiness which only briefly. Today I do not work because today is the day of graduation, so I'm off a day.

Finally we come home each! When finished eating together seems the sun is resting on the west. I hugged Diana before I get into the house. I love her so much, and do not want to exchange it for anything in this world.

"I Love You Honey!" I whispered softly in his ear. It seems a thin smile visible on his lips.

"I Love You too Honey" she kissed my cheek. And move away from her stand place, I want to make her come to my house that is not as nice and luxurious as his home.

The house began rotting with a very fragile foundation that's my house, with roofs that leak when it rains start coming. I was not commensurate with her, the princess who does not suppose to love the ugly frog prince.

When she has gone, I immediately entered into the house to tell the good news to my mother and 3 sisters, Nena, Nina, and the smallest Neni. I love them because ever since my father passed away 5 years ago I must be willing to become the backbone of the family. My mother sometime help but I do not want her too tired. Especially since my father pass away, my mother often sick.

All the things that sometime make my tear fall just like that without me knowing it, shame it was when my sisters look to my whine when they just go to my room. But I do not want to give up keeping trying to make them all happy, outwardly and inwardly. Therefore I will make any kind of things.

"Mom, I just arrive at home! I have good news............. Mom! "I pause for a moment" why deserted house "I explain to myself. A few minutes I just stood facing the bedroom door that looks at the end of the room. Somehow did not feel awful, but the morning seem like any of the less, I will not understand what is waiting ahead.

Suddenly, Jeje, people who lives next door came over to me. After he spoke, told him what had happened, without thinking, I immediately went to leave Jeje granted.

Having arrived at the hospital I could not hold my tears dripping, visible to the three sisters are small still came over and hugged me, but sorry for my brother's new Neni 5 years he has not understood what was happening.

A few minutes later my mother woke up from painted seems, but why all this time my mother hid his illness to me, often times I told him to go see a doctor, but he refused my order always, until what happened? As the proverb says 'rice has become porridge' it’s all too late before she could overcome her illness. My heart was sad to hear the explanation the doctor about the disease my mother.

"Hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She said premises thin smile that looks at the tip of his lips. But she still looks very pretty at my eyes; Mother is very tough to face this cruel nose.

"Hey!!!!!! Mom, how are you now? Have you become better? Sorry I forgot the time, even having fun outside the house who does not wear like this. Sorry mom! "I begged.

"Hey honey how was your graduation? What is the result, could you managed to get the scholarship? "I can only rest with the tears fall.”Hey your son is not allowed here lo whiny mother hug"

"I'm just like human else, mom. I could also cry when I'm sad, maybe I've seen tougher, but no one knows what is in the heart. And here I am a guy who is weak. Mom how it shall I behave. I was not able anymore to live like this "I answered with increasingly heavy tears down my cheeks.

"I understand how you feel during this. Because my mother is one who has gave us birth and raise us. "It seems excessive coughing in the middle of our conversation. The blood just came out of his mouth, her respire was out of breath. I was so panicked at this incident, when I want to call a doctor out of my mother covered my mouth with the tip of his finger.

"I'm sorry Dit! Can you keep your sisters if one day the mother has been unable to keep you company in the world "she begged me. Why did my mother talk like that to me? "Didit forgives Mother once again yes!" She asked again but with a cough that became increasingly.

When I shouted for a doctor, my sisters come awakened by the sounds of screams of surprise. After the doctor came and tried to save her, it was too late. Breath her fly with the wind with a light soul rises towards the eternal.

Not just me that sad, all of my little sister also joined into an endless grief. Complete is suffering now. Children orphaned by three sisters who are less fortunate.

Empty in an instant everything swallows grief, and responsibility that I bear in shoulder emotion, with the help of my whole body as a crutch.

The days that I passed through gloomy for so long, who knows what is wrong. In the morning after the funeral of Diana came again in the hope I will not let go this golden opportunity, an opportunity where I can pursue all my dreams. Although Diana offers to take care of my brothers when I travel later in study abroad, but what power I could not remove the responsibility that was god show me. I reject it with pride because it has taken a decision that indeed it shall I disconnect.

"It’s fine, if you do not want me to take care of your sisters, let's go to school now. But I cannot deny, if I'm glad you chose Indonesia, and I still can see you, without having to go far away to foreign countries "her dejected took leave together.

Indeed this is exactly what I should do, making decisions for an option that is sometime is difficult for me to face. I will strive to live that indeed I have chosen now.

But still I feel a sense of regret, when she went so quick to go left us! 'Mom I will always to remember of all the services and the love you give. As I replied to all that, I would love my sisters like a mother loves me. Because I believe if there is a process there must be a success rather than failure.